Does anyone know a good AI app? Chatgpt is too slow lmao.
The backstory is my biological dad was physically abusive to me growing up, and now he's still in my life but distant. and definitely less abusive.
I daydream for hours and hoursss about myself being a young child and being cared and protected and loved and being showered with hugs and kisses and snuggles from a fictional stepdad. It makes me feel so safe and warm. I usually fall asleep imagining this.
Sometimes I imagine sexual-ish scenarios with my fictional stepdad. I create high stakes, vulnerable situations to test him (like having a wound on my chest/breast). But he passes every time by staying neutral and protective. Though I want to, my brain never allows anything sexual to actually happen since he's supposed to be a nice stepdad that maintain boundaries and is never weird or hurtful.
It used to be way worse btw. There was a time where I used to imagine being sexually abused by a man who later feels guilty and hires a therapist who later adopts me as his daughter. But I don't imagine that anymore.
I posted this two days ago and someone messaged me to use AI. Anyone know a good AI app can replace a dad? I'm not too needy I swear 😭
Edit: Also, in my head, I make vlogs (my daydreams) with my stepdad and then I imagine my actual irl biological dad seeing these vlogs. Listen, idk either. Just tell me a good AI app please 😭
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