As the topic states, but as tldr as possible bc it’s so much and my [32f] brain is fucked from being in this situation for over 14 years.
10 years together, 4 years broken up. 2 kids, house, dogs. My youngest child [4 on Thursday] and I spend all of our time at home in my bedroom to avoid interactions. My oldest [12] does the same. My door no longer locks because he has forced the handle, broken the frame, broken the trim, you name it. I’m verbally abused just for existing. There is no correct response for me to make. Every interaction is formulated this way. But only where there are no outside witnesses. I’m a husk. I can no longer have normal interactions with people. Almost half of my life has been spent in close proximity to him. I’m constantly anxious bc idk when the next smear campaign, sabotage, retaliation, intimidation, coercion, or violation is going to occur. He’s manipulated every connection and support I have, playing both sides to create a reality for me where I cannot trust anyone I interact with. Every word I speak and action I take has dire consequences. I am physically safe enough at the moment, but it takes no imagination to know this will end with my death if I can’t escape it. He controls every aspect. Who I can be friends with and until when. Sometimes it’s years between when the conditions will be okay enough that I can have a one-off hangout, but I always pay the price for it in one way or another. Sabotages finances to the point where I can’t survive independently. Is my boss at work, so there is zero break from this. His mom is his boss. She hates me and never even considered the possibility that her son is lying. She works with him to reinforce, encourage, and enable his behavior towards me both at work and at home. No car, so I’m reliant. No expectations for privacy. Not in the bathroom, not getting dressed, not for a phone call, text, thought, feeling, etc. Not my cellphone, iPad, diary. I’m exhausted with hours long, days long, weeks, months long arguments and manufactured scenarios that paint him as a victim and me as an abuser. I’m afraid to take action bc my income supports all of us. I’m mostly used to the social retaliation from people who think I’m abusing him, but the full truth coming out presents a real and present danger to me physically. I have a lot of audio and iMessage evidence that I’m confident a judge would grant me a protection if I presented it. I’m in therapy with a woman who specializes in trauma. She will also start seeing my oldest in a few months when he turns 13 provided I still have a job/insurance. She has provided resources to me and I believe would write a letter to the judge citing the damages his behaviors are causing to me and my kids. It’s really hard to organize and articulate my situation bc it triggers panic and anxiety, so I’ve used GPT3.5 to help me explain the most important parts and identify abusive behaviors that fly under the radar bc I’m either defending myself or trying to anticipate and brace for the next thing. I want to use another form of Ai that can analyze and transcribe audio files so I can quickly find the evidence I need to present to the judge. I don’t have the time or privacy to go through hundreds of hours of audio, and hearing it again makes me feel like I’m reliving it. It’s really hard to be a good mom when I’m preoccupied with all of these actions. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life hiding in bed from the world. I miss being able to play with my kids and not worrying that everyone’s out to hurt me. I need to get this guy out of my life so I can heal and help my kids heal from all of this. Should be noted: he does not care or provide for his kids. They only exist as pawns to paint himself a victim, gaslight me, and threaten to convince a judge that I’m unfit/keep them from me/charge me child support.
TLDR; Need suggestions for where I can find ai that transcribes hundreds of hours of [iPhone/iPad] audio to text so I can quickly find examples of ongoing abuse, cite the longstanding history of it, and have a legal barrier of protection to help me get out of this more easily. Price is a major concern, as is the ability to transcribe that much information. Some recordings are in excess of an hour. I do not have reasonable access to a computer.
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