Reaction of Ilya and Co reminded me the ending of a very hard to watch french movie Martyrs. I couldn't bring myself to watch the whole uncut movie due to too much female torture but I saw recap/summary and the ending was very profound to me. Anyo…

Hi guys, "Blinded by pain" might be an appropriate phrase to describe my current situation, mental as well as physical. Or that poem "wild dreams torment me as I lie" by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe except the last verse thankfully I …